yamanai ame da neeee

sbux.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009

i've decided to quit my job. seriously, i'm glad that i finally picked up enough courage to move on. but today, pamela made me really sad (well, and happy at the same time) she said that she doesn't know why but i make her really happy. oh mannnnn i didn't tell her she is one of the few that gives me a happy shift. she told me, people move in and out of our lives and we just have to accept that. omg. damn sad.. i feel guilty for quitting now, but no, why should i stay? when about half the time i get bad shifts? i have to talk to a boss that makes me feel bad, and juggle school at the same time.. its too much.

i've learnt SO much at sbux. i think no one will believe how much till they've tried it for themselves. the learning there is so independent it scares me even when i think back about it. its definitely nothing like what we face in school oh man its a whole new dimension all together. and everything there.. its so real.. the friendly facade, the sudden surge of help when the boss comes. ahaha i think this is life, isn't it? sometimes its so difficult not to fall into that trap. makes me sad to think that eventually we all have to behave like this, because you are the only one who suffers by being obstinate.. justice, fairness, being yourself. its all bullshit at the end of the day. what matters is you deliver. first you must be able to deliver, then lets talk about fun and laughter.

but then, i'm really gna miss alot of them. like srsly. pamela, thai, salleh, yul, teng, abang yan, sarala, (who left before me).. and some others whose names i don't even rmb (sorryyyyyy). it amazes me that such a short stint of 2 mths can make me realise so much about myself, about the world, about human kind in general.

2:47 AM

my daddy <3
Tuesday, September 08, 2009

just now daddy and i sat down and ate the baluku tgt. then he said to me,

girl nowadays seldom here you laugh?
why leh?

omg. wanna cry.

8:35 PM

omg. there's too much work.
its... quite stunning.

7:30 PM